once, you said that all i need is love. my respond was just a laugh. you know, i found love, and then love left me, without hesitation or a slight consideration of what i so called five years relationship.
now, i become bitter, you said. well, my yummy boy, maybe that was a broken heart gave you.
i know, we shared a quite nice friendship back then in college. in fact, i adored you. you, with your long black hair and pair of clever eyes. but what captivated me the most, until now, is your smart conversation. i could stay for hours just listening to your theories, twisted-philosophies of you or a simple stories that we shared with laugh.
i appreciated our night that we through with beers, tequila or maybe just coffee, if you and me wanted to stay sober. and i really comfortable being in your arm. you know, i really love watched you sleep after beers.
but that’s it. i can’t feel the chemistry even when you touched my lips or kissed me. i know what you wanted from me. but, hear this yummy boy, i can’t be casual. once i gave in, it would be all of me, my body, my heart, my soul.
no, i wouldn’t call that love. i can be pretty devoted without involving love. but i will need you to love me. and love here, yummy boy, will include your very soul. half-hearted relationship won’t work for me, because i want it all.
now, can you give that to me?
no. you can’t. you said, the only thing that you can’t give is love.
and so, it’s obvious for me that we have no future. so, dear yummy boy, let us keep this simple. i will be there for you as you for me. nothing more, nothing less.
Bandung, frozen December, 2009.
owww…I like the way you name it, ‘yummy boy’ hmmm….
I would like to make one too…:)
and i want another one ^_^